give me wings give me peace
April 10th, 2007

Inhale, Exhale, It’s Going to Be Over Soon

Things have been going slowly and hectic-ly (ha) as usual. I’ve created a theme for this site, but I still don’t have the time nor the computer to just sit down and do my lovely hit-or-miss coding like I usually do. I’d really like to upgrade and install new plugins, but alas… I have no machine.

The funds for my trip have been been coming in nicely, and I just sent a bunch of letters, too. Last time I checked, I needed $300 or so. It’s a nice big difference from the $2,725 that I needed at the beginning of the year. Now, I just need to get my clothes for the trip which means a shopping trip is coming up soon. Wooha.

Regional Teens Involved is in less than two weeks and guess who hasn’t prepared/practiced at all since Area?! At least I’ve been keeping up in my piano solo… Which probably won’t even matter since last year I practiced my brains out and still didn’t qualify. Anyways. I’m just glad that a lot of the things I’m entered in, are individual instead of group thus making everything stress-free since I don’t have to really rely on others.

I finally broke 100lbs. yesterday. It might not seem a lot to you, but I have the hardest time gaining weight due to an uber high metabolism.

I was also just accepted for the National Honour Society. W00t. Now, I’ll have a pin (and place it where?..), a stamp on my diploma (and enjoy it how?…), and have to pay dues (and this is good for the broke kid how?…).

I”m a little upset right now… (This’ll be a little more personal) I really would like to get my ears pierced again, but I’m hitting so many no’s. I don’t think my parents understand that I’d like to do this not only to express myself but also just so I can say it’s for myself. I do a ton of things to please my parents and those around me, and I’d just like to say ‘This is for myself.’ I’d like to just say, ‘This is why kids rebel, why my friend is off in a different state in a detention school and why when I finally turn 18 and have my own car, I’ll be out of the house and not coming back.’

I really just can’t stand living here anymore and being so suffocated. It might seem like I’m over-exaggerating and whining, but I’d really just like to be myself and my own person instead of doing what others expect me to do.

One more year. Just one more year.

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March 21st, 2007

The Answer to That Is.. 42

Things have calmed down a bit, and I’m still gaining more and more strength everyday. I’m really excited about this upcoming summer, though. My trip director from France, Mr. Kelly, has been helping apply for STC this summer. STC is staff training at a Word of Life camp, and I’ll hopefully, be working at the WOL camp in Florida. I’ll be gone from June to mid-August, but I think this will be a great opportunity for me to get used to living on my own, working and being at the FA Bible Institute. I’ll be paid a scholarship at the end of the summer ranging fom either 1k to 1.5k, and that certainly helps a lot.

Lately I’ve been so overwhelmed by my studies. I’ve got the SAT in a month, and with summer STC’ing and the trip to England, I can’t afford to be behind or having ‘left-over’ studies for when I come back. Basically, I need to cram 4-5 units (usually, one unit of studies is done in one month) in a span of two months. Aside from my studies, I’ve also got the Teens Involved compeition to worry about, an upcoming drama, and whatever responsibilities I have during the week.

I’m so ready for the summer vacation.

Before I forget, I’ve got something special to announce–Heather, my host, now has her own fanlisting run by yours truly. It’s called ‘Girl of the Year’ (from the FM Static song), so if your a fan of Heather (like I am), go join!

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March 14th, 2007

It’s Malachi… Not Elijah or Amos.

Malachi might be fixed this weekend! :D That might not be exciting news for you, but I’ve been without Malachi for the past three months… (Malachi is my mini iPod.) He really just needs a new battery, and I don’t see how paying the Apple company $60+ for a new battery is really going to help seeing as how A. They’re out of style to begin with and B. Last time I checked, I had four dollars and a quarter to my name. Now, I just need to transfer my entire library and delete the tracks I don’t normally listen to. I miss my music library…

EDIT – March 14th 2007
Over and hour later, and I have my entire library over to my dad’s laptop. I’m a very happy Rachel. :)

The spring season has finally come, and I’m excited… I hate the coldness. ‘Coldness’ is in my list next to country music, orange flavoured tic tacs and mislabled soda fountain drinks.

I applied for the National Honour Society a fews ago, and I was accepted! For the first level at least… I still have to send in a few references, a self-evaluation and a few other things. It’s still a little overwhelming–I’ll be a seniour and in less than two years, I’ll be out of the house and starting my life. I’m not sure how else the National Honour Society will benefit me aside from a pin and something on the diploma, but *shrug* I guess it’s something extra I can brag about to my kids.

My leader from the France Reachout trip is coming over this weekend to speak at my church. I’m excited since it’ll be the first time in over eight months that I’ve seen someone from the trip. I’ve been talking/sending emails/facebook comment-ing everyone else, but it’ll be nice to actually see someone in person.

My piano teacher has been reassuring me of my skills and the level of difficulty I’ve come to in not only my theory but also my playing. I’m kinda skeptical, but… She has been a piano teacher, music majour at ECU, and a band/orchestra (whatever) teacher in Wilson for x amount of years. My ‘college level’ of playing has just reached Carl Bach’s Solfeggio in C minour. This kid on the youtube video is crazy good at the solfeggion on the electric. Now, I just need to transfer it all to the piano. I’ve got a few measures down, and I’m about a fourth of his speed.

I was I was cool enough to have magical fingers of dexterity.

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