what the poo?
it always seems like whenever i hit the ‘play’ button in itunes, people start talking to me. i then hit the ‘pause’ button, and they stop. do people just have radars in their brains to annoy me? haha

obviously, i didn’t ‘officially’ blog yesterday, but i had good reason to: i was talking to jake for a long time about us. not anything bad, we just talked about some situations in the previous semester: what happened, our perspectives on them, and if we were really mad at each other because of them. i’m not one for real confrontation, and i like to just talk about problems and figure out a solution instead of arguing about it later. there were two times, that i can remember, where we had disagreements, and i talked to him afterwards about if he was really upset with me or not. he said he wasn’t, but i just couldn’t tell from his body language and the way he was talking to me. we talked about it a lot last night, and we finally got it all cleared up.

i really like talking to that kid.

it makes my life so much easier to just explain and talk to him instead of arguing.
i really hate yelling and arguing. and i’ve seen that my parents don’t talk about problems as much as they should, so it then results into an argument. i don’t want that to happen with my future beloved.

i think that’s one thing i really like about our relationship: we disagree and talk about. with my past two relationships, the guys have always let me ‘be right’ or they never voiced their opinion; and that’s what i don’t want. i don’t think one person should totally take control and their opinion is supreme. i like that jake disagrees with me on things, but then i also like the fact that he’ll talk to me about it; or i’ll talk to him about it. he has a spine – i think that’s one of the most attractive things about him.

i don’t expect our relationship to be perfect, and i’m glad we’re talking about things like this. it makes me happy to know that, if someday in the future we get married, we have a good foundation for working out our problems.

another thing that i like is that we don’t have just our serious conversations through aim or texting. we actually talk about important things in person. that’s another thing that i think really damaged my other relationships: i wanted to talk in person, but the other wanted to resort to just talking through phone, texting, or aim. i believe there are just some things that need to be discussed in person, and i’m glad i can do that with jake; and he feels comfortable with it.

i really miss that boy.
i don’t know how i’m going to deal with summer break if it sucks this much over Christmas break.