You wouldn’t believe how much drama that could go on within three weeks, but I guess that’s what you get when you agree to go to an actual school. Being homeschooled, I knew of the drama, and I had some of my own within my youth group. But at the same time, it’s still a bit overwhelming to see everyone gossip and become paranoid.
I’ve had my own share of paranoia the past couple weeks, but nothing I’ll elaborate on here in this blog. It’s too personal, and I like having at least some privcay.
College is going great, though! Three weeks in to it, and I’m still loving everything. I received a 96 on my last paper and a 100 on my last quiz. It’s great to just get off to a good start with everything. Because I was homeschooled, I sent my papers and tests to the main headquarters where they graded it. But you really don’t know if there’s any biasness or if they’re just blowing smoke. Because I know some of the graders and that they’ve graded who knows how many other papers, it just gives me some more confidence that I’m actually kinda good in this sorta thing!
In my quiet times lately, it’s just been amazing at how the verses jump out at me given how the present day occurred. I had a wierd day – a lot of good, some awkward, really just a lot of confusion and vague-ness. I really didn’t know how the day would go, and I just prayed that God would take care of it. I knew he would, and it felt great going to bed because I knew that whatever happened, it would be in God’s purpose and plan. I just had such a great assurance before I went to bed. When the day and its events actually occurred, I still kept praying that everything would work out, and it did! It was so much better than what I expected, and the clarity in the air is so refreshing.
When I went back to my quiet times, I saw so verses that grabbed my attention and really just applied to my situation.
For You are my hope; O Lord God, You are my confidence from my youth.
My praise is continually of You.
I have become a marvel to many, for You are my strong refuge.
My mouth is filled with Your praise and with Your glory all day long.
As cliche and metaphorically speaking, God has been my strong tower and refuge these past couple weeks. David was so confident in God and in His security and protection, and while I faulter at times, He’s becoming my own confidence as well. He has been so amazingly with me throughout all the situations and experiences I’ve gone through the past three weeks, and it’s amazing to see God’s hand throughout all of it. It’s not me at all. It’s not my own work. It never has been, and it never will be.
I love the chapel services here. I just love being there with the other 784 students singing praises to God. I don’t question my purpose here on this earth because I know that God has put me here to praise Him and encourage others to do the same. My words just can’t express how much I love singing songs to God during chapel. I feel so refreshed, and like how David prayed for it, my bones are healed and my strength has come back to me. I just can’t stop praising my God!
I love being in this atmosphere. I love growing in my relationship with God, and I love praising Him!
You don’t understand how happy I’ve become in the last three weeks.