Part II: The Emotional Side of Christianity and Doubt
(If you do not know what I’m doing, you can refer to this post)
Lately I haven’t been feeling like a Christian. ‘How is a Christian supposed to feel?’ you ask. The typical answer is that emotional high felt while participating in praise & worships songs with other Christians present (you know what I’m talking about). But in reality, I believe that feeling is produced more by hormones and adrenaline. You feel that high every once in a while because of those around you and what you’re doing at that time. For example, at camp, I get that feeling because I’m surrounded by other believers, because the music is amazing, and because I really believe the words of the songs being sung. As soon as you strip away the atmosphere, you feel like your normal self, and you don’t have that high.
I just don’t feel like a Christian at times. I really don’t.
However I remember what my dad would tell me when I had these kind of doubts: It’s your hormones and emotions. You don’t have to feel like a Christian (that emotional high) to be one.
I’ve come to the conclusion that Christianity is a decision. You decide to admit you’re a sinner. You decide to admit you need Christ. You decide that the only way out of pain and suffering is through Christ.
A long time ago (and a couple other times, to be honest), I’ve decided to take that path. I decided to accept Christ. I decided to admit that I’m not good at all — basically, a tree is better at praising God than I do at times. I decided to live my life the way God wants me to. I decided that Christ is the only way to Heaven, the only way to peace, the only way to true happiness.
And even though I don’t feel those emotional highs, I know that I’m still a Christian because of my decision. Because even though I feel apathetic, sad, and worthless, through Christ’s sacrifice 2,000yrs ago, I’m going to Heaven. Because I decided to trust that what He did was enough.
Reader, you might not understand what I’m talking about, but that’s ok. If you want to talk further about Christ and what He did way way way back in the day, then you can just contact me.
Christianity , Devotions , Life , Myself
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AMEN!! wow that’s a good post for me…I definitely don’t always feel like a Christian, but you’ve got a lot of good points in there
Comment by Scott, April 8th, 2008,
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Comment by Lucy , April 8th, 2008,
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wow that was really good
Comment by John, April 12th, 2008,
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I will never accept a religion or to be that kind of Christian, because I know these things aren’t the way it supposed to be. I see the churches as some big mafias and nothing else.
I will always say that I’m atheist, even if I am not, just because religion is something that I don’t believe and most of the people that are practicing it are too strange and sometimes I think they are quite stupid. Just because they think in some parsons, in the pope and what “religion”(and these people) tell them.
Comment by Monica , April 14th, 2008,
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I use to feel the same way and wonder why I would be so high on God at camp and not feel a thing or maybe even feel depressed again when I got home.
But it’s different for me now and God is there for me whenever I need Him, I think He was always there I just didn’t find Him before because I didn’t seek Him.
I run to Him the second I feel sad, depressed, worthless, I run to Him for comfort and anwsers theres nothing esle I can do, and He’s never fails to be there for me.
Comment by Gaby , April 25th, 2008,
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Reply to Monica:
I agree with you religion is the stupidest thing in the world! I don’t believe in religion either, I believe in God and the amazing things He has done for me.
Comment by Gaby , April 25th, 2008,
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