There are a lot of things I’ve been struggling with, and I’m hoping that those who read my blog that I know in real life will keep this to themselves and not spread it around. I know how we often say ‘Sure, I’ll keep it a secret!’ and then go off and tell someone else. Seriously. It’s not too much to ask.

As I said, there are a lot of things I’ve been struggling with in my relationship with God, and I really do believe that when I write things out, my head becomes more clear and things are easier to understand. It’s not just a ginormous jumble of thoughts pinging back to each other like my friends are when doped up with skittles and Mountain Dew. I’m going to try as often as I can (seeing as how I can’t type for too long, the muscles in my hand start to fail), to blog each part of everything I’ve been struggling with.

Part I is going to deal with Hypocrisy/Judgement in Peers.

There’s a specific person I have issues with. I probably always will have issues with him. We just don’t get along. We manage to butt heads all the time, and because of past experiences, I guess I’m sorta unwilling to let go the ‘You did me wrong’ type of attitude. He’s arrogant, cocky, judgemental, demeaning, and he just doesn’t know when to shut his mouth. There have been numerous times when he’s been a jerk to me and my friends.

I write all this because most of the time I’m reminded of ‘Me thinks that thou protest too much.’ What I’ve come to understand about that is sometimes we protest and complain about others because we see those character traits in ourselves.

I have such problems with his whole character and how treats others, and I have to be honest and think ‘Do I think this way because I’m no different? Do I see those same characteristics in me, and because I’m unwilling to admit it, I blow things out of proportion?’ I have to admit this, and I really have to examine how I’ve treated and spoken to others.

I probably complain about people because I can see their character flaws in myself.