For all you FM Static fans out there… ;)

I have a new layout up, and this one should be the mother of all layouts (hopefully). The layout to end all layouts, and the layout to just be THE layout. I’ve taken care of every single detail in this layout, so yes, I did spend a good couple days of my long awaited Christmas break on this. I’m also going to be blogging more (hopefully). It’ll take longer, but the quality will be good; and… at least it’ll be there. :tongue:

Christmas was awesome. :) It was a nice, quiet Christmas… Invaded by my cousin. He drove two hours to spend some of our Christmas with us. :cool: Needless to say, surprised the stuffing out of my entire family. No one knew he’d be coming by, so it was pretty cool to see him again. On to the materialistic side of Christmas… I got 4 new albums-

Jonezetta: Popularity
The Classic Crime: Albatross
The Fray: How to Save a Life
Haste the Day: When Everything Falls

I also got some cash which I spent on some new jeans at Old Navy, and the rest is to be spent on some slip-ons (With my relapse, my flexibility is also hindered, so I can’t stretch to put on my Chuck’s as of late) and a checkered tote bag that “screams ‘Rachel’ that it’s not even funny.” Four albums and the new apparal added to Superman Returns and a lot of chocoalte sums up my list. :cool:

My family loved their presents, too, which is only a lot of pressure taken off my shoulders. I got my dad a Veggietals cd (Veggies singing the 70’s) along with Andre Bochelli’s “Amore;” and I got my mom some Lindt chocolate and lotion from Bath & Body works (of which the scents were the subdued, “Cherry Blossom,” since “Moonlight Path” reminds me of my grandma and “Sweet Pea” is too strong-even for me). I got Ash (my brother) some Poke’mon toys, and he was ecstatic. Yay for a Christmas in which case I got really nice stuff, and I was able to return the nice-ness to my family! :batman:

Our youth group went to Durham last Friday to help ou the rescue mission, and… It was ok. I was debating on me going since I didn’t see how much help I could’ve been. I mean, I couldn’t have helped with toy distribution or setting out the clothes, but I went anyway. I would’ve felt bad not going since I already said I would, and… I’m OCD, and it just would’ve felt odd not going. :upsidedown: My youth pastor knows what’s been going on lately with my relapse (I’ve got a muscle disorder, and it’s been coming back), so everything worked out alright. I sang as apart of caroling, so I didn’t have to do anything too strenuous.

Having more people know about what’s been going on lately has really worked out (to my surprise). A lot of the kids would stop and ask if I was ok during that morning’s work, and when I’d tell them my frustration of wanting to help but couldn’t, they were understanding and encouraging. :blush: I’m still a little skittish about telling people, though. I know how some people will take it, but it’s everyone else I’m worried about. Some people, I know, will be able to take it and keep it to themselves. Others, don’t have that skill, and other others… I just don’t want to “cry wolf” when I know it’s going to end in a couple months.

So what happened with me and that possible relationship?… It’s just not going to work. :meh: The more I thought about it, the more I knew it wasn’t going to work. I’m not going to compromise myself and my standards for something that probably wouldn’t have lasted long. As nice as it could’ve been, it just wasn’t there. :reallyashamed: I’ve got a lot of “brothers” though who I can depend on and get hugs from, so it’s not as if I’m a heartbroken emo kid bent on slicing my wrists because of (yet another) failed relationship.

Ouch, stereotype.

I’ve started a design/inspiration journal. I was “inspired” by a book at Barnes & Noble, and I just want to scrapbook small photos and keep a record of anything that inspires me. It’s going to take a while, and I’ll probably hate some of the stuff I put in it; but it’ll be a good discipline for me. I’ll be able to exert creative energy into a space that may wind up being a portfolio?… I’m excited. :cool: